It has been a long time since I have blogged on Spirit of the 8th Fire; I would apologize but my blogs are the least significant content on this site. The truths carried in the other pages are profound and timely, anyone who looks around knows that we are in the time of decay… the decline of “civilization” as we know it. Every culture has prophesied this end time, the Anishinabe (Ojibway) call this the 7th Fire.  It is easy to be afraid of the unknown, everything is changing so quickly right now. Institutions are crumbling around us; economy, education, organized religion and politics; nothing is the same any more. There are two reasons for this first is that the systems we have were never design to sustain the current level of population. The second and most important is that we are evolving I see a huge difference between my generation and my children’s generation. So as their generation takes over institutions will evolve which are better suited to serve the current and future populations. This does not mean we were wrong, it just needs to change and we need to change with the times.  Any species that cannot adapt to a changing environment will become extinct.
              Fortunately with or without our conscious participation we are evolving are a species. The Incans prophesied a time when humans will evolve within a single lifetime…that time is now. At this moment there are hundreds of thousands of “Light Workers” (teachers of metaphysical truth) and “Healers” guided by the example of masters like Christ, Buddha, Gandhi, Lao Tzu, the list goes on and on; these people teach light and love into the world. There are at this moment millions of Awakened who treat their fellow humans with kindness and respect; giving unconditional love for the divine creation that each person is. And at this moment there are billions of Seekers; people who live with dis-satisfaction about their personal life. They are looking for happiness, purpose and meaning. How can I possibly feel anything but joy at this unfolding?
             To be present at this amazing emergence of light and love into our world is the most incredible gift I have ever been given. Being alive in this time to be witness to the igniting of the 8th Fire leaves me grateful beyond words. I hope you will put aside your fears and enjoy the moment that is NOW and the beautiful spirit being that is YOU.

          WOW ...It has been a year since I last posted a new blog. This fact has in no way affected traffic to the website. I am not sure if I should feel relieved or disappointed by that.  We all like to believe that we will be missed; but it is nice to know that the truths being shared here, stand strong on their own merit.  
          I am beginning to remember one of the reasons I stopped blogging .... my eyes can't take the strain of reading/writing for more then a few minutes at a time. I am already needing a visual break. 
          Given my last two blogs you may have imagined all kinds of dire outcomes to explain my absence.... essentially I have been cocooning.  Considering where I was emotionally 12 months ago, it has been a wonderful year for me. 
          I have spent this past year learning and growing and opening myself up to my own evolution as a spiritual being. My life to some extent has folded in on itself, like a flower wintering beneath the snow. I reduced my outreach work, my art, and as you may have noticed my writing. I continue to volunteer but only 4 hours a week. My energies have been focused entirely on myself and those closest to me. This summer I was so profoundly blessed with a beautiful, amazing life-mate. Being in love is a wonderful thing and I think it is even more wonderful at our age (midlife). Every moment with him is joyous... 
          I don't know who I will be when I emerge from this chrysalis  (moth or butterfly) but I trust that I will be a better, more evolved spirit of consciousness.  I wish you all the abundance of joy , peace and love that is your birthright as a child of the Creator. 

          In my last blog I discussed my “Dark Night of the Soul”, and expressed my decision to stop fighting it and just ride it out. That was Monday the 3rd; by Friday I was absolutely desolate and I spent the next four days locked in the darkest place I have been since the breakdown of my second marriage. Drank wine and ate chocolate and wrote poetry (more Sylvia Platt then Elizabeth Barrett). This only made me feel worse, the alcohol especially did nothing to lessen the pain, the wine simply impaired my judgment.  Allowing the negative thinking to be compounded by unrealistic expectations of how things (and people) should be. 
           Like it or not Tuesday I had to put on people clothes and go out
into the world. I am a volunteer at the Nanaimo Men’s Centre. I am rigorous about keeping my word, so bailing was not an option for me. After that was done I hurried home to grab some dinner and go to the second committee meeting of Human Exchange Society. This is a group a started volunteering with about a month ago; they provide refuge shelter for recovering addicts. At that meeting my duties for the group were defined and I began almost immediately thinking about how to bring the most value possible to my service for these clients.
          Tuesday was clearly a turning point by Wednesday I was pondering
what lessons I could take from these experiences I am having now. Thursday I found myself willing to trust that (even if I don’t understand) what is going on, must be necessary for my spiritual growth. With that knowledge I am now able to allow the negativity of this situation to begin flowing through me from moment to moment. I am not holding onto it any more. Am I back to my old self? No, but I am better then I was a week ago. And isn’t this human experience really about moving forward.
          I have always found I am happiest living outside myself; by that I mean when I am in service to others. Tuesday brought me back in touch with that. So, I guess I am suggesting volunteerism as therapy. 
Have a joyous day.

          I have heard others on the spiritual journey talk about the “DARK NIGHT of the SOUL” and thought I knew what that meant. I have been through some tough times in my life, an abusive childhood, been a teen mom, had a couple of broken marriages, single parenting and always in one form of poverty or another. I have always been able to find the good (the light which balances the dark). My childhood made a stronger more compassionate adult. My daughter’s birth grounded me, my marriages taught me how to love better, being a single parent, taught me to set aside false pride and ask for what I need. And poverty taught me that “stuff is just stuff”… it can be replaced. True value is held in time; the moments of our life and how we choose to spend them.  
           In response to the obvious question, “What is she babbling about now?”  I am experiencing my first true, DARK NIGHT of the SOUL. It would be wrong for me to let you believe that living from spirit means that “shit won’t happen”.  I have taken you along on this journey so far; the wisdom I have learned (much of it from our Native brothers and sisters), the insights, the joy, the hope for humanity… so many exciting things to see on the path to enlightenment. Now I have hit a pothole and feel it is necessary to share that too. 
           This began a few weeks ago and involves a confluence (hope I used that word right) of emotionally charged events; all of which have been precipitated externally. An old love returned just long enough to upset the emotional apple-cart, renewing feelings of guilt and regret. Then there was/is a major financial setback. Circumstances are forcing me to focus on certain chronic health issues, which I find manageable and choose not to dwell on. My computer had a problem and it ate many personal files; some irreplaceable pictures, short stories and poetry. Beyond the sadness around losing those things; until I can replace this laptop I am afraid to download the images for my kids' book…so that project is on hold. I have also discovered that my eyesight has deteriorated to the point where I can’t read books anymore (2-3 pages in and my eyes burn). If you know anyone in Nanaimo B.C. who is interested alternative views of Christianity or Native Justice; I am looking for a reader.  
          Although I can resolve each of these in my head, I can’t get my
heart to “feel it”.  I think that is what makes this a “DARK NIGHT of the SOUL” At first I fought the feelings of negativity and depression, but the failure to sustain a positive attitude just added feelings of inadequacy to the mix. So I have decided not to be proactive… I will lash myself to the mast and ride out the storm (to reference a nautical term). I will cry my tears, rage my rages, write my poems and soon as with all things, this
 will pass. 
           the DARK NIGHT of the SOUL has been referenced by so many of the dominant healers and teachers in the human potential movement that I think it may exist as some kind of energetic breaking point or portal. I am picturing a tunnel that gets so narrow you have to leave all that you are carrying behind. It will allow us to continue on the journey freely. Or it could just be shit happens and at this moment it’s happening to me. Guess
we’ll see in good time LOL.  Have a joyous week.

          It is my belief that when a small child asks a question, that is an indication that they are ready to hear the answer. It is equally true for adults, if you are suddenly introduced to situation which cause a question  from your heart; you are ready for new information which will help you understand your journey. A few years ago when I was in Hamilton, a young friend of mine (an Iroquois healer) mentioned Twin Flames.  I had never heard of the concept so asked him to explain. This is his explanation. When souls are born from the Creator, they are born in pods of 6 (3 female and 3 male) which go their separate way, live lives etc, always yearning for each other. This explanation was a good start and intitally it satisfied my curiousity; but since meeting my own Twin Flame, I discovered this is a much more complex relationship and has a lot of contradiction from various teachers on the subject.
           So I will share my understanding, from my personal experience;
which closely reflect the teaching around the subject by a woman called
Antera . Twin Flames were spirits born together (this does NOT conflict with the eternal soul principle). You probably NEVER shared a past life… you only meet up when both of your spirits have evolved sufficiently to bare the level of expansion you bring to each other. The Twins initially face huge struggles (internal and external) if they come through these still holding onto each other then they are ready to bring their gift to the world. We all know that everyone has energetic gifts… when like minded people come together the vibrational level is multiplied (not simply added) like when I attend meetings at the Two Worlds Spiritual Centre in Nanaimo.   But when Twins come together the energetic vibration is squared. It elevates the whole of humanity and in this time of awakening… more Twin Flames are being brought together because more souls are ready for that level of evolution.
          Although we see Twin Flames joining as couples; the Twining is an entirely spiritual relationship. Personally, I have no romantic designs on my flame, but I can see how easy it would be to fall in love with someone who brings so much expansion into your world.  A Twin Flame cares less about your comfort and happiness, then they do about your highest good and evolution. Twins will challenge you and often make you uncomfortable; movement is made from being in a place of discomfort. 
          And to answer your question, “How do I find my Twin Flame”.  YOU DON’T. When you are both ready, you will be brought together and nothing you can do will stop it.  So relax, enjoy this lifetime for all that it brings, live each moment from love and gratitude. 
Have a joyous day.


 

           Yesterday I saw a Facebook post that said, “Mery CHRISTmas”. A young, man whose writings I often find quiet insightful posted a blog titled. “Who needs Santa when you have Jesus?”. If these people and millions like them knew anything of history and the evolution of Christianity they would not be claiming exclusivity over the Holiday Season. 
           But it does remind me that I should say something about this
time of year. I am not going to tell anyone what to believe or how to celebrate. My pagan friend is having Christmas dinner with her Mormon family; my Wiccan friend will have ceremony on the solstice and attend chapel on Christmas day. My reformist /protestant Christian friends will celebrate with family and not see a church. More orthodox friends will be at mass and my Asatru (ancient religion of northern Europe) friend will have 12 days of celebrations. Even diehard atheists will have a celebratory dinner and gift exchange. 
           Whether a person chooses to celebrate Jesus or Santa or the flying spaghetti monster really isn’t the important thing from the standpoint of spiritualism/ energetics.  At this time of year the vast majority of the world’s population finds some reason to come together in love and gratitude. There is more kindness pouring into our communities then at any other time. My friend Brenda volunteers as a driver for food bank distribution and she has been run ragged for the past month.  That increased vibration (good vibes) makes the whole planet better then it was. 
           This morning someone pointed out that not everyone is happy;
that holiday season has a very high suicide rate. If a person chooses not be grateful for the gifts of this life, of this world; that is not something we can fix for someone else. There are so many reasons to be grateful for this
Holiday. I am grateful to have people who love me and know that I love them, without the need for “proof" (i.e. gifts). I woke up to snow today, wet but still fun to see. And today I discovered that the 7-10 (soup kitchen) will be having a Holiday breakfast on the 25th. My kids won’t be here for Christmas but I will spend a beautiful day listening to music, maybe  writing and relaxing between phone calls and good wishes from family and friends. My big Holiday plans are fasting and meditation over the solstice this weekend.  I am saying choose to be happy! This may not be the best Christmas (Holiday) you have ever had or ever will have but it is the only 2013 Christmas you will ever have. It is hard to be unhappy when you are feeling grateful. So count your blessings ;-)
           Now about the Santa (lie) thingy. If your kid is old enough to ask,  “Is Santa real?” then he/she is old enough to handle the truth. Until then
let the kid enjoy the fantasy or folktale, either way the old guy is a vibrant part of our cultural tradition (albeit recent). When I was 5 my Grandmother told me that, Santa is the spirit of giving that we all feel at Christmas time. So in reality we all get to be Santa. That spirit of generosity is shared across the board this time of year; from atheists to the most devoutly religious… we have a shared sense of gratitude and that is what I celebrate this and every Christmas.  

Have a joyous holiday season.

To continue our discussion from the other day about putting my canoe in the water, here are some other important things I have learned through researching energetics.  Readers Digest version;
1/ We are spirits having a human experience.
2/ As spirits we are all powerful. But using it all doesn’t serve our
               growth/journey.
3/  It is our nature (birthright) to be abundant in wealth, health, joy,
               peace & love.
4/  Source energy is LOVE unconditional. 
5/  Each person has their own journey, do not interfere.
6/  Live in the moment.
7 / Ego (human consciousness) is resistant to surrendering control 
                  of your life to your spirit.
8/  Stop judging ,
          “A thing be neither good nor bad but that we think it so”. Seneca.
9/  Everything is connected (mind, body, spirit) in the individual
                  and in the quantum/universe.
10/Think with your heart (your higher consciousness speaks here).
11/Live in a state of gratitude and allowing (acceptance). 

 To elaborate a bit on the above points:  
1/ We are SPIRIT (conscious energy) having a physical experience (like Nicholas Cage’s character in City of Angels). Just a light being driving
around what amounts to a carbon based car and like cars when one wears out we replace it. Hence the reincarnation thingy.

2/ Our spirit-self is an expression of source/god energy and therefore is as powerful a creator as source. Yes that is ALL powerful.  Fortunately (unlike humankind) spiritual power comes exponentially with wisdom. That is why I described manifestation like dancing up a spiral staircase, the more powerful / skilled you become the more your priorities change.

3/ Some people come into their awakening suddenly, through a near death experience or another “Road to Damascus” type encounter.  For most of us including myself it is a journey, one step at a time picking up “ah ha” moments along the way. This knowledge is very old from multiple sources, times, people and cultures.  

4/ This divine ultimate power which is in all things, through all things
and of all things is LOVE. Not the ego driven human love; but unconditional, pure acceptance simply because you are spirit. Once you start living as spirit first you are receiving and disseminating that energy all the time. Remember energy is always in movement or flowing. Human love is also good, it is one of the things we came here to experience. Once you start living in that awareness, nothing troubles you anymore. 

5/  No you cannot be ALL powerful in human form. If that is what you wanted your spirit would not have chosen the human experience. This is the surrender part. We are on a journey and each step on the road brings us closer to awareness (awakening). Accept that each person (including you) is doing the best they can in any given moment. 

6/ We can learn from the past (even past lives)… We can prepare for the future but the only time we can live in is NOW. Live each moment like it is the only moment you have.  

7/ For most people the human –self (toddler) is running the show. As we awaken we become more aware of our spirit-self (teenagers-adult) and allow that part of us to be more in charge. Like taking a toy away from a 2 year old your human-self is going to fight you for control. So you may have to transfer power a bit at a time. 

8/ Stop judging, others, yourself, situations, outcomes, and whatever... just allow it to be or become and enjoy what that unfolding brings to you. Judgment comes from the ego (human-self) and is not is authentic to living from spirit.    

9/ The connectedness of all things means that our physical health is affected by our energetic flow (or lack thereof) as well as our  psychological state and the organics of our body and environment.  All of these things have to be considered in becoming our healthiest, happiest most abundant selves.

10/ All the wisdom and knowledge of the universe(s) is available to us through source consciousness (energy). Your intuition is in direct contact with that higher /divine knowing. These are the grown-up in the household of our lives. But the toddler (ego) in charge is going to try to distract you with tantrums to keep from hearing what the grown-ups are saying. Always follow your intuition (heart knowing/ gut) over logic. Don’t try to anticipate or control the outcomes just trust that all is as it should be.

11/ Be grateful in every moment for what is present and good, don’t carry the pain of the last moment into this moment. Will that pain still be there when I open to the next moment? Probably but we will attend to that moment when it gets here. In this moment, what do I have to be grateful for? The sun on my skin, air in my lungs, a child’s laugh or cry. So just for this moment I take a break from feeling pain and choose to feel gratitude.

This has gone on quite long and only scratches the surface of what I have learned on my journey to energetic power. Thanks for listening and now that we have the location of the north star I am excited to see where my canoe will take me. 

Have a joyous day.  

          When I was in my 20s my first husband and I decided to do some  wilderness canoeing. So like any prudent city dweller we took an orienteering class and after that I took a wilderness survival class which included orienteering.  Then because (at that time) I had an interest in wild life photography I took a bow hunting class (I was “shooting” not shooting but the same skills are required) which had an orienteering component. No matter how many charts you look at; the north-star is still in the same position in the night sky and the sun still sets in the west. After a couple of years exploring energetics, I feel like it is time to stop studying charts and just put my spiritual canoe in the flow and enjoy the ride.  So today I will share what I have learned about the constants of spiritual energetics. 
           We talked in earlier blogs about metaphysical laws and how these
truths (like geometry) exist with or without our awareness or approval. You may choose not to believe in triangles but it doesn’t change anything. Everything in our physical world consists of atoms which are more space than substance.  This space contains an energetic force which keeps the electrons and protons orbiting a particular neutron, if you didn’t take 9th grade science just trust me on this.  To keep this part short the energetic force which holds everything together is what passes for “source/god/universe/divine etc”. 
           What was news to me …is the idea that we can (and do) impact that energy and co-create our lives. If we co-create our lives why does life suck for so many people? Mostly it is because we don’t know we have any power so we let life happen to us… also as we react to the accidents of our existence we create an energy field which attracts more or what we currently have in our life.  This changes when we start to live on purpose, by becoming proactive instead of reactive. The Tall Trees (Robert & Terri) reference 3 arrows of power Thoughts, Words & Actions.  I think Action should be first because you are choosing what to Think and what Words you use to create your life.
          “But how do I create the life I want?” you ask. How the hell would I know, you’re you… I’m me? But I can share my understanding of the basic principles (location of the north-star to stay with the original metephor).      
          Source energy is always in  motion… so everything in creation vibrates (including people) these vibrations flow through the universe impacting the vibration of other things. Think of one of those kinetic desk toys, where you pull the metal ball back release it and each successive ball is set into motion. The last ball flies out comes back and reverses the motion. Your energetic vibration impacts the flow of the vibrations around you and because energy is all connected eventually it will ripple back to affect your field (create you life).  Hence the folksy wisdom around, you get what you give.
          The happier you are the higher (faster) you vibrate… apparently  the dynamic is that vibrations pull on each other so a high vibration usually pulls a s/lower vibrations up.  In lay terms, good moods are more infections than bad moods. 
           Source energy exists as collective consciousness. Picture an inverse pyramid with Source (of all knowing of all forms in all dimensions) at the top. Below that would be celestial / light beings (angels, spirit masters and such).  These groups have many layers within themselves. Then we have energetic beings which include ascended masters like Jesus, Buddha, Mohammad, Gandhi, Dr King, Mother Teresa etc. right down to your dead Aunt Edna in her big old flowered dress. At the bottom we have physical life forms, living here and in other realities/ star systems, wharever. 
           So you can see how putting human consciousness in charge of
co-creating reality is a lot like leaving a toddler in charge of running your
household. Just as it is a good idea to engage the grown-ups to run the household it is a good idea to get the higher levels of consciousness involved in co-creating your life. 
           I have gone way long on this blog so I have to sign off for now.
This weekend I will blog again and cover the topic of  how to approach the process of living on  purpose and creating the life you want, instead of whatever shit show you have  been living in. 

Have a joyous day.